New levels

“The self sacrificial process that is loving and accepting love – everyone talks a big game and describes how they want IT. How they want someone.
But Love is not easy. It is not the surface level interaction so accustomed to our generation. It’s not click bait. It’s not something you scroll past. It cannot be articulated in a top 10 buzzfeed article.

It’s fucking heavy. It’s nightmares about losing someone. It’s realizing that every time you’re happy you wish they were by your side to feel what you feel and see what you see. It’s depression from distance and fear that there’s Another One like you out there. It’s straining in your sheets at the thought of them.

And I think that’s why so few are willing to participate in the exchange; it is terrifying to link part of your identity to someone else, and it is heavy to hold pieces of someone else in your hands. But it’s worth it. It’s the only thing that’s worth it. It’s vital to see where we fit with others and where they connect to us.

It’s the only thing that can set a life on fire – to reach a new level of bliss and belonging. It ignites passions. It creates harmony among beings and opens vast horizons of possibility. I can only believe that it transcends space and time – that it can be felt years later and thousands of miles away.
I have to remind myself constantly to feel the beat of my heart and sacrifice myself to those I love.
And when someone abuses this power, and when I am broken… I know I have people there to fix me.
And I will rise from the ashes like a Phoenix.
We must do it more.”


“How could I not be utterly intoxicated by you? I have always lacked self-control and I have never cared to sip you slowly” 

-Kaitlin Foster 

Is this supposed to feel so tender? 

Am I supposed to feel so soft? 

Everything feels so light and you, my love, are to blame. 

Greys on the mind

At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don’t keep other people out, they fence you in. Life is messy. That’s how we’re made. So you can waste your life drawing lines… or you can live your life crossing them.

But there are some lines… that are way too dangerous to cross. Here’s what I know: If you’re willing to take the chance, the view from the other side… is spectacular.

Things to remember when you graze a memory of him

If you feel him in your veins, remember this:

He is not magical, He encapsulated you for only a small about of time. You possess magic

He cannot give you the world. His is too flawed. You can find the world on your own.

He can’t save you. He can’t even save himself. You don’t need someone else to save you. You need to save yourself.

He does not complete you. He can’t even finish what he started. You don’t need anyone to complete yourself. You have it all inside.

He is not original. His actions are repetitive. You are original.

He is not special. He gives himself freely. You are special.

He is not worth you time. He caused you more anxiety then you ever needed. You are worth your own time. Invest in yourself. Your time is valuable.

He can’t give you what you need. He can’t even give himself what he needs. You can help yourself.

He can’t support you. He can’t even support himself. You can support yourself.